wow!!!! it's been a while....

i dunno what to say except that I'M FAILING PHYS. ED! i only passed 2 of her tests... how am i gonna pass? i been avoiding asking to join the volley ball team so that i can pass the class, but HEY if that's the last resort ...I'M GONNA JOIN VOLLEY BALL....

I love softball madd luv to all the ladies who play with me......

i wanna kill natalia..ummm...does anyone else wanna?

lil bit of background 411 on the reasons why i might hang myself with my cleats shoelaces when around her:

1. Can u say bleach blonde?

2. Everyone has come to practice just as much as she has and they aren't making Varsity so shut the F*** up!!!

3. You don't have to suck up the coach knows you can't play....

4. Ummm...let's not let the long list drag on forever... but if i didn't make Varsity and i been playing since i was madd lil (and i'm not complaining) why should she be talking when she can't play ...

I DONT HAVE AOL ANY MORE!!!!!!!! :(

my new email is luSciOuSbeSos1@yahoo.com

and im gonna make up any aim account a.s.a.p.

I was playing softball today with Tesia, Lauren, Paulina, Natalia, Amanda and Sandy... it was so much fun to finally put my head into something that really interests me and i'm kinda good at it. i thank my softball coach Lucy for being the crazy coach she was... I have been feeling really bad lately... if you know me you know why... its like the first time i have a big crush the boy that i like likes another girl. NO BIGGIE...i'm trying to move past it, i wasn't in love or anything but he is such a great guy.....DAMN i wish you MADD LUCK with him (you know who you are.) let the record show that i don't want pity but i would like to move past this....any SUGGESTIONS?!?

on a lighter note....

JROTC BALL.....I WANNA GO!!!

somebody ask me...lol (im pathetic!) don't worry about the money...

I have been avoiding writing in my xanga just because i dont think that people find it very entertaining to read others complains about how much their life sucks. but i feel that i should let others indulge in my misery....

well i really really liked the boy that i was working with on the Shakespeare thing and i had this feeing in the back of my head that i was gonna get to obsessed and scare him away. i think that even before i could reach that point he was already obsessing over this other girl in our school. well i thought that i could trust my friend to keep me updated about how he felt about me ......well she didn't, and i saw him and the  girl that he liked having lunch together... what can i say except that it was devastating for me. my 1st crush in this school and what he had to say about it all was that he felt guilty.... that's a strange way feel about this. i mean GUILTY ....how does that word fit my situation. im not a bitch so i let things go.......

I wish them the best of luck in their relationship and you dont have to pity me.....:)